appalling_cynicism
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26th-Apr-2009 09:45 pm - More escapism.
appalling_cynicism: (From one life to the next)
The funeral was yesterday. Somehow, I was the one who kept it together. Not sure how that happened. Soon it'll hit me I guess. I don't know how Jen's going to go. She's decided that she's coming back to uni tomorrow. I can't even imagine what she must be going through. He was her little brother, he was 8 months younger than my little sister. I know they knew it was coming, but I don't think that makes it any easier.

I'm glad I am not in the flat on my own this weekend.

My plans for tonight involve Grey's Anatomy. I really wish I hadn't lost the first two seasons in the great hard drive death. I guess I'll start at season 3.
23rd-Apr-2009 10:12 pm - Escapism! Yay!
appalling_cynicism: (A house of cards)
Part way through Bones - I don't know what gender Tanaka is, and I don't care. Tanaka is hot! I would guess female though, but that may be the Takarazuka fan talking.

Wow, it was a really wussy Heroes ep this week. Wah! Poor me, I have the powers of a god but don't know who I am. Also, I don't like the Matt romance they seem to be hinting at.

I plan on escaping into crappy television for the next week. Life really sucks at the moment. Assessment may be over, but much worse things are happening and I can't really deal with it. I will deal, when my friends need me, but on my own I plan on pretending that absolutely nothing is wrong.
7th-Apr-2009 10:17 pm - Things will be better in the morning
appalling_cynicism: (A house of cards)
Well, that's the end of that dream, I guess. What the hell I am going to do now, well, that's anyone's guess.

You'd think after all these years, my friends would have some idea of how to cope with me when I'm devastated. Apparently, no. Apparently, they completely fail at common decency sometimes. Apparently, their idea of how to make me feel better first involved me cooking dinner for the five of us, then when I objected changing to they'll cook dinner but they will invite someone I absolutely can't stand. That does not seem to me like the best plan, but hell, what do I know? I am seriously considering just making an excuse, staying home, and watching sad movies.
28th-Mar-2009 08:19 pm - Last Lord of the Rings entry, I swear
appalling_cynicism: (From one life to the next)
Oh God, the third movie makes me cry. The third movie makes me cry so damn much.

Sam is the most amazing character. He is so brave and sweet, and it hurts when Frodo sends him away. I cry every time, then again when Sam comes back, then again when he says he can't carry the Ring, but he can carry Frodo. This could turn into an epic, but incoherent, babble about how much I love Sam, but I am going to stop now.
26th-Mar-2009 12:23 am - Books!
appalling_cynicism: (From one life to the next)
The Well of Loneliness was completely devastating. It has left me completely numb. I realise it was over-written and melodramatic, but it still kicked me at the end and I can't really explain why.

I'm not sure what to read next. It's odd, not doing a lit course this semester. I am so used to having my reading dictated to me that I don't quite know what to do on my own. I'm thinking about going back and reading some old Bryce Courtenay books again. Maybe The Power of One or The Potato Factory. That, or Jane Eyre, because it has been a while since I read it last. Okay, it's been about 2 months, but it never really seems enough with that book.

I'm thinking either Wil Anderson or Danny Bhoy for my next picspam.
20th-Mar-2009 10:04 pm - Seriously, why don't I have a Grey's icon?
appalling_cynicism: (A house of cards)
I am notoriously sooky in TV shows, I cry at the drop of a hat. I am very proud that I made it until the shot of George running down the hall at the end before I teared up. This is quite an achievement.
14th-Dec-2008 12:46 am - Seriously, is it time to sacrafice a virgin to the gods of technology?
appalling_cynicism: (Do I exist?)
So, it is no secret that technology hates me. I know that sounds ridiculous, and it did start out as a joke, but I am truly starting to believe it. How else can I explain the death of my external hard drive and my laptop within a week of each other? I'm not sure whether the files can be rescued, but I am not optimistic. There is a horribly good chance that I've lost all my music, movies, television series, and documents. I am upset about that, but not overly so. The idea that I may have lost all my photos? Driven me to hopeless sobbing in my room. I have about 5 years worth of photos on those devices. Some are printed, most have probably been copied onto other peoples' computers, but there are still a fair few that are probably gone forever.

Also, I am ridiculously and painfully sunburnt.

There are good things happening in my life...I assume. I can't think of any right now, but there must be. Nothing is horribly wrong, it's just that nothing is quite right either. Losing my photos, sunburnt beyond recognition, extended family will be gone before Christmas, people I still considered friends treating me like nothing, sister in New Zealand doing all sorts of amazing things without me.

...I am baking tomorrow. Baking will alleviate my suffering.
30th-Aug-2008 04:31 pm - More of my crush on Kate Walsh
appalling_cynicism: (Mmmm)
And we have Addison! I love her, even if she did cheat on Derek. It's not even just the sheer hotness, it's the way she owned what she did in 'Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head' when the patient was being horrible to Meredith. From that moment on, it was love. The hotness does not hurt though.

I'd forgotten how much I loved Burke/Christina at the beginning. It got kind of horrible towards the end, with tremor-gate, but before that they were my favourite couple on the show. I'm almost up to 'Deny, Deny, Deny' which is my single favourite episode of Grey's Anatomy, if only for when Burke gets on the bed.

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I have two more lots of lecture notes to write up for my mid-semester on Tuesday. I'll have those written before I go to bed, so that just leaves a skim through my text book tomorrow. I shall be celebrating my exam with Futurama!Thursday, probably involving cake as well as the two Futurama movies.
16th-Jul-2008 04:32 pm - Wicked
appalling_cynicism: (I'd pay to see that)
I love Wicked. I want to marry it and raise a whole family of little musical stage shows. Now it needs to come to Brisbane so I can go see it again. I teared up in 'Defying Gravity' when she emerged on her broomstick. Actually, I teared up a couple of times because musicals almost always make me cry. Millsy was surprisingly good as Fiyero, and really nice to look at in his tight pants. I was kind of expecting him to suck and suck hard. Little hobbit Australian Idol guy, Anthony Whatsis, was underwhelming. Not bad, just underwhelming. Overall, I want to go see it again and again and again.

As awesome as Melbourne was, I am really glad to be home. As much as I love the people I was there with, I am not so good at spending 24 hours a day with a group.
4th-Jun-2008 03:37 pm
appalling_cynicism: (Daydream believer)
I am such a sap. I'm still riding the buzz from the Michael Buble concert, so I've had all his albums on random while I've been doing my notes. The only problem is every time I hear Home, I cry. I just can't help it. I don't know why it affects me so much.

Yup, definitely a sap.
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