appalling_cynicism
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10th-May-2009 06:41 pm - Emo Daisy is Emo
appalling_cynicism: (Cartoon man in a cartoon world)
I am being emo tonight, having stupid suspicions that I may in fact be unlovable. Usually I would just bug flatmate until she had a cup of tea with me and reassured that I had some of the qualities of a worthwhile human being. I don't entirely know how to talk myself out of it on my own. I'm going to try stupid comedies with absolutely no romantic plot lines. I'll probably go with Faulty Towers because not only is there no romance to speak of, but there are no real friendships either. I may need that tonight.
27th-Apr-2009 07:18 pm - Daisy needs a hug
appalling_cynicism: (The solution to life's problems)
I just feel tired and broken at the moment. I need something good to happen.

In order to make something good happen, well, I'm not sure what I'm going to do, but I'll do something. Maybe talk A into going out for cocktails. Get all dressed up and go out, listen to music, and maybe chat to some randoms. Just, something.

Music has been a big help lately. The songs on highest rotation have been:
Stitching Leggings by Kate Nash
Breathe by Anna Nalick
Samson by Regina Spektor
Get Better by Mates of State
Today Has Been Okay by Emiliana Torrini
Wrong Again by Kirsty MacColl
Special Ones by George
Keep Breathing by Ingrid Michaelson
Infinity by Inara George feat. Bryony Attkinson
Thanks for Today by Kate Miller-Heidke
You may note that they mostly involve a girl and her piano. Also, mostly kind of melancholy and pretty.
20th-Apr-2009 10:12 pm - Words
appalling_cynicism: (I'd kiss you if it wouldn't kill me)
I was told I blaspheme too much today. Seriously. I'd beg to differ on that. Swear too much, maybe, but blasphemy? I do blaspheme, but creatively rather than frequently. I have a policy, if it would make my Catholic grandmother laugh rather than look disapproving, it is acceptable. Yeah, she is a good Catholic, but not a great one.

I have done my last undergraduate mid-semester! This is awesome!

I need a life. I want a life. Having approximately one quarter the workload of any of your friends does not lend itself to spending time with them. They are all busy and I am just bored.
19th-Apr-2009 02:13 am - While I was watching Futurama...
appalling_cynicism: (A fairy tale ending)
Drunken flatmate just got home and crawled into bed with me. Apparently, drunken flatmate has been making out with a cute friend-of-friend for the last hour. Drunken flatmate is now showering in an attempt to sober up and stop freaking the hell out about said making out. It is rather out of character for her.

I am quietly trying not to be jealous and to talk her out of her immediate instinct of never ever talking to this guy again.
10th-Apr-2009 07:27 pm - Gratuitous icon post!
appalling_cynicism: (The geek shall inherit the earth.)
Oh look, I has a new icon. Also, I am still procrastinating. I seriously need a good kick up the bum. Or a pressing deadline. I do very good work when I have a pressing deadline. It often results in tears and distinctions. Mostly tears.

I have to say, though, this icon kind of makes me terribly sad the same way my Wash icon does. Tosh! Owen! *wibble*

I wish I had more icons.
2nd-Mar-2009 10:21 pm - When did I become such a ship whore?
appalling_cynicism: (A fairy tale ending)
Usually, I only have a couple of proper ships in any given show. Grey's Anatomy is apparently the massive exception to this rule. I didn't realise until I filled out a couple of friending memes, but I have a ridiculous number of ships. Seriously. I ship:
I'm cutting this because it is 20 ships long. )

I could probably come up with more if I tried.

In politics, Warwick Capper and Pauline Hanson are running against each other in Beaudesert. I am actually embarrassed to be a Queenslander right now.

Hello to all my new friends! I hope I don't scare you away.

I think there may be a Richard Hammond picspam in the works. I watched an old Top Gear ep tonight and it reminded me how much of a crush I have on that man.
31st-Dec-2008 01:52 am - Less crazy tonight
appalling_cynicism: (Hit you with a perfect spiral of truth)
Okay, so I am definitely saner tonight, there is much less freaking out. I am still lonely and the rest, but tolerably so. I talked to a couple of friends who inadvertently reminded me of how much they love me. Also, how much I love them. I have amazing friends who I can talk to for 45 minutes without discussing anything of importance. So yeah, back to relatively well-adjusted.

I am spending New Year eating brownies and watching Heroes. I may love this plan a bit. I don't care how tragic it may be.

[livejournal.com profile] flaaa_blah, according to my flatmate, your package has arrived. I haven't opened it yet (the whole not in Brissie thing), but thank you in advance! It is weirdly exciting to be going home to shiny, shiny mail.

Erm, [livejournal.com profile] broncobabe007 may have talked me into shipping John O./Stephen Colbert. This is bad, I think. This is also requiring Colbert!picspam. Just remember, intelligence and humour are fricking hot.

Seriously, I would marry him despite him actually being twice my age )

The picture with mini!Stephen freaks me out. It really truly does. Also, I imagine this is the last picspam of 2008. I'd say it is ending on a high.
30th-Dec-2008 12:32 am - Look at me whine.
appalling_cynicism: (A house of cards)
All things considered, I am reasonable well adjusted. I mean, with the obvious exception of my inability to function without regular bouts of physical contact with other people. I need the physical affection of another, be it a resting a hand on my shoulder, leaning on someone while we watch a movie, or full blown hugs. I just don't function without physical reassurance of affection. Anyway, my point is that I am basically permanently single (I'm twenty-one years old and have never been on a date) and I am mostly okay with that. I am loved and I love those around me, that is usually enough. Tonight, however, I am just lonely. Ridiculously lonely. I just want someone to want me, which is stupid and vain, but I don't care. I know that it won't happen if I just keep doing what I'm doing, but I am terrified of trying and failing. So I just keep hanging out with friends in my comfort zone, and keeping to myself at uni, and generally avoiding leaving my flat if I don't have to, none of which is in the least bit helpful.
17th-Dec-2008 09:08 pm - Day 3!
appalling_cynicism: (Mmmm)
Today was kind of fantastic. Mum and I went for morning tea with an old friend and her mum. D and I have one of those friendships where it doesn't really matter how long it has been, we always find something to talk about. It is easier now than ever, her daughter is gorgeous, if a little whingy.

Gingerbread men cookie cutters!

Scrapbooking is brilliant. I'm putting together a 21st pressie for one of my favourite people in the world. It has made me realise that I have almost no photos if myself because I am usually the one with the camera.

In things that don't make me happy, why must all my crushes be either fictional, someone I'm never ever going to meet, and/or twice my age? Actually, there is one exception but he is one of my favourite people's best friends. That puts him strictly off limits, if there was any chance he'd be interested in me anyway.
24th-Sep-2008 01:25 am - Heroes ramble, no spoilers
appalling_cynicism: (Small joys in a big 'verse)
I take back all my Mohinder love. He is an idiot. I still have nothing but love for Nathan and Matt. Elle and HRG too, actually. Claire is less made of suck. Peter...well, he will never be the sharpest tool in the shed, but there is something cute about his constant ineptitude. Hiro and Ando will always be both awesome and adorable. One last Heroes comment, quit it with the romance! You can't do it, so please stop inflicting it on us. Leave the romance to the fangirls. Okay, one spoiler )

JK's boyfriend did more than just drunkenly kiss random girl in pub, he slept with her. Last night was spent crying and hyperventilating, until I just curled up with her, rambling about all sorts of unimportant crap, until she went to sleep. She was still teary when I dropped her home this morning, but she seems to be coping.

My other perpetually single friends have boy troubles at the moment. This is bad, it means that I may have to become a crazy cat lady on my own, which would suck. One day I will have boy problems...or girl problems, whichever comes first. That day will be a strange one.

I am going to the ballet tomorrow! And to the coast! Then, on Friday, I get to go home and wear my awesome hot dress to JM's 21st. Life is good.

Next entry will have recs, lots and lots of recs. Also, probably pictures of Lee Pace. Life, good.
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